'tis the season

Well, its been a while since I've last visited these hallowed grounds. There are excuses though. Nothing much has been going on. After escaping the confines of Laguna Beach, I wallowed around in my own misery for 3 or 4 weeks, till some generous people asked if they could pay me $14/hour for two weeks. I lived through that, and after a nice week in Florida with my Dad and Kathy, I started back in on the wallowing. Honestly, I can't really remember what I've been doing these last few weeks. I know movies were involved, a lot of sitting on the floor, doing things with leather.

There is, however, something wrong when you find yourself going to bed later and later, and sleeping in half the morning, because you are trying to waste the day away and avoid eating so you don't have to spend money on food. (The money goes towards the movies instead, and I lose weight at the same time. A win-win situation.)

I haven't been neglecting the job searching though. I drive around every few days, looking for "Now Hiring" signs and applying to those places. But there isn't much that I can do when NOBODY CALLS ME BACK. This has been the crux of all my mental problems. Don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly happy sitting around on the floor making leather bags and whatnot to use as Christmas presents. There's nothing wrong with that, but there's a lot lacking. I really miss the rhythm of work. And the pride of a job well done, going home, and doing it again the next day. And now that my parents are in town, there's added pressure because I'd really like to avoid those semi-disappointed looks from various family members, that I'm not comfortably situated in the normal patterns of life that they come to expect.

But the Lord was looking out for me. I was persitent enough with one of the places that I applied to, that they gave me an interview time, and yesterday, I got into my car and started playing loud happy music with the wind whipping through my hair, because on Jan. 3rd, I'm rejoining the workforce. I'm a little nervous because I've never worked in strictly retail before, but I think I can do it.

Now I can sit back and enjoy my holidays. I hope.

Ta!